==== possible reasons why I do this ====

- It takes REAL BALLS to shop for women's clothes.
    
        (really:  it's freaking scary.  I have problems with social-anxiety, but after I
        successfully buy some item of clothing, I feel really good, because I've used the shopping
        experience as a way to help me get over social anxiety.  I almost feel like dating is
        scarier than buying women's clothes.  So these are "trial runs".)